I was so completely lost, emotionally drained, and felt like I had lost my inner compass. Any and all clarity that I once had seemed to have disappeared. The only thing I knew to do was get outside. My gut was telling me to GO! 
...So I went for a run. 

I ran for over 5 miles in the woods, on the trails, through the mud and the puddles. I let the cold rain beat down on my face as if it would cleanse my entire being. 

I pushed myself up the hills, over the rocks, down the slippery declines as fast as I could go, breathing heavy, music cranked, because pushing my physical self was the ONLY thing I felt I had ANY control over. 

When I came to the tunnel, I ran through it and screamed as loud as I could in an attempt to 
LET. IT. ALL. OUT. 

At the half way marker I flipped my hat backwards, my full face exposed, almost as if to say “Hey Universe, it’s me out here...I’m fully exposed and I’m choking for air. Please send help. Please give me a sign.” 

And as I started back the other way, I saw it and it stopped me dead in my tracks. 

💕Right under my feet was this rock shaped like a heart. In the middle of the mud and the puddles and the brush and the dirt, the roots and the rocks and the trail, there it was, looking up at me as if to say, “Hey you. You’re going to be OK. I hear you. I see you.  You’ve got this.”💕

And right there, in that very unexpected moment, right there mid run, mid trail, legs covered in mud, body covered in sweat and wet from the rain, fueled by sheer adrenaline, I cried, and I cried, and I cried. I let it all out and I left what I could behind. 

Yesterday was by far my most challenging day I have personally experienced through all of this. And while I know this too shall pass, I quite literally felt as though my ship was sinking and I was underwater choking for air. 

And so I did the only thing I know to do. I listened to my intuition, my gut feeling. I got outside. I ran...hard. I received. I broke.

...and I picked myself back up and kept going.  ✨And that my friends is what I call a WIN.✨

I have learned in this life that I usually find myself sitting in the thickest of shit just before some kind of huge growth occurs. When things get REALLY hard and I feel as though I can’t possibly take one more step and I want to just say fuck this, I know I must keep going...because something GREAT is just around the corner. 

I am grateful for today...a new day, a fresh start, a new perspective, and yet another opportunity to take my next best step forward and grow. 

If you’re reading this and you’re struggling today, you are not alone. 

I SEE YOU. 

I HEAR YOU. 

💥No single human can possibly take on ALL THE THINGS being asked of us right now without feeling overwhelmed or lost along the way.💥

Give yourself some grace. Let yourself experience ALL the feelings. And remember... if you crumble and fall, if you find yourself crying and letting it all out, IT IS OK. 

You are, after all, only a human BEING.
And yes, this too shall pass. 

Do what your intuition tells you. Collect yourself, all the pieces, and then leave behind the shit that needs to be left behind, pull yourself back up (on your own or with the help of a friend, in my case my sister💕) and take your next best step forward. 

Sometimes we just need to sit in the thickest of shit to grow and change and receive whatever it is that is awaiting us just around the corner. 

❤️YOU CAN DO HARD THINGS❤️